him again

Hear me out,
I know I shouldn't. I know It's dumb, but I dreamt of him again. He was there. And I'm sick of feeling this way. I'm sick of falling in love with a guy who can and maybe never will love me fully.
I know he's liked me. I know he's had his moment, but he's still with her. They're 'serious'.
Oh but that's when it gets worse. He has a girlfriend. I know I shouldn't like him even now. It's-It's knot right. But I do. And I can't help it.
I love him.
I haven't seen him in months, parents helped with that, but it's not working the way it should, the way it sometimes does because I still like him.
I just wanna see him again. To see that maybe he wasn't worth liking after all.
He doesn't like her! I know he doesn't! He only goes out with her because of his friends, or maybe he does like her. I dunno.
Maybe I should just wait. Maybe I should just let him go.
But I can't.